Sidewalk Star

Sidewalk Star

I was like a butterfly

I could hop and I could fly

I loved to hide myself from your eyes

I often stayed awake in the night

I loved my bonsais and flowers

I liked to walk in the showers

I loved to sneak under the covers

I wear my old jeans over and over

I felt I had some super power

I wanted my life to change over

I felt a lightning, a shudder

I then needed a shoulder

I realised life is now different

I knew this always, was dormant

I kept walking, no more deterrents

I didnt lose faith, not any errant

I now lie down with a pool on my back

I close my eyes, it's bitter I know that

I raise my head, see my guitar bag

I am far from over, just a sidewalk star

I still want to fly high

I often says my tears a bye

I feel fine as the days go by

I go strong and I still can smile

The Urge

The Urge

Light went dim though bright inside

What my mind says always right

Lives of others, lets keep aside

Searching soulmate in all strides.

Age just a number no one care

Sizes and shapes we'r reaching there

Emotions urges to take us there

Making bridges no more scares.

Dark eyes tells lot stories

Of life and other mysteries

Lack of voice in its subtlety

Communicating at urgencies.

What you choose is what you seek

What you find may be creep

Noding at all pop up peeps

Marking every step you keep.

Clearing thoughts and past alike

Future tense wont give a strike

Live in the present with a strife

It goes, no plain, but with stripes.

Words that are strong, lets not use

Often bleeds and nothing to choose

Hold the grip of trust sounds good

Together walk the mile from roots.

Thoughts

Thoughts

The belief you carry on, till you reach six feet deep

The cross hair you are into,web of myths, so steep

The firm you hold the Cross, the strong it possibly make

The storms inside you should help fall across the fake.

Forbidden thoughts, forgiven as you have faith

Foresee the spectrum of speculation, as we go,He will save.

Fame and bills, take you on till you go grey

Frame by frame, picture this, as the old men say.

Compliment and conquer, the heart and mind, as we speak

Configure the Holy Words, deep thy heart, He seeks.

Confiding the perimeters of mind, throbbing emotions, hold now

Conflicting memories keep the fight within,i can feel it how.

Stubborn, unborn, crippled, mutilated and multiple thought process

Sunburn, demonic, obnoxious, surrogate and speculative sources.

Charismatic, your name tells me, wounded you cant save yourself

Turn back to your Creator and forget the human GOD, he is flesh.

Your Crystal ball, cubes or hypothesis is of no use

You are a puppet and current master another one, that is due.

Your grey cells are bleeding when misunderstood

You have to realize, all are human, there is only one GOD.

Annoying, exasperating, antagonizing, into your flesh these words

Apply this, enticing, enigmatic, racer sharp double edged sword.

Allow to get healed and get back to the normality

All now will be positive and keep this a formality.

The Corner Stone

The Corner Stone

Strange things are not always unpleasant

I never wanted life as fluorescent.

Kept myself shut inside this small room

Suffocated, but got used to the internal norms

Life in the fast lane, all dreams

Lucky, that you had chances and frames.

Struggled, kept my head up and took breath

Almost in same plane yet, but a bit more fresh.

Absurd, illusive and intuitive words of mine

Felt affection, extreme and aggressive, cant define.

I was out of this world, for some moments, just once

Tried to see with your eyes, lost it due to glare

Never thought that it would end up as a flare.

Im still the corner stone, the one you thrown away

Im the one born for some reason only GOD can say.

Im open as i was and will remain to stay

Im fine so that you can come back and say hey.

Mistakes we all make and have to accept as it is

Sustain from further is what we do have to see.

Being strong is a virtue, just need to grow

Im a kid, you said so, i feel i need to know.

Hands are wide and stretching to you, come back

Eyes are open and searching for you, know that.

Build the bridge, cross the flow, try again

Life never ends, breath may be , dont keep the pain.

The Eyes

Eyes

The story so far, as we both know

The lost decade, set to swallow

The sun, the rain and the dust are gone

Those dark clouds no more, you are your own.

You have an aim in life, his name is kindness

Me too have one, two, and some forgiveness.

Life has been rough, still it might be

But hey, that is the way it should have been.

Never can stop thinking about those dark eyes

It always gleamed and glared across the class.

Feelings were different, there were reasons

Actions misfired at your end, changing seasons.

Morality and rituals, you fought your way through

Plans and prejudices, it had it's own virtue.

Strength of your mind, still it is visible

I still believe, for you nothing is impossible.

Mystical mudras, are they still in your memories?

Stranger i am, but i have some stories.

Shadows will grow, gets low and then it goes

My mind is still wandering, but you wont go.

The streams run across the stones and rocks

Always pushing hard and trying to talk.

Perseverance is the only thing i know

And i can wait, i'm not done, i hope you follow.

Your Man

Your man

Who's your man, an odd to you,
Claiming your sleep, search in few.

Dreams are clouds, shinning through,
Rains are emotions, passing you.

Eyes wide open, stranger I am,
Wont let you down, word of mine.

Voice of yours, a distant hope,
Wish to hear that lips say "Hello".

Hide and seek u like to play,
Craving for one glimpse of ye.

Trying to reach out and touch you,
You elude to those clouds, all new.

Your eyes are making me dizzy, you know that?
And your words are making me crazy, i feel that.

You are always glowing as those things you craft,
Life is more than that, want to draft.

Dry sand beneath by legs, now wet,
Quickly turning out to be dry by sunset.

Did we know in past life or so?
I can wait a million years, if you say so.

Am i the man in your dreams, this one is straight,
Not ashamed but happy to be in that fate.

Life is new to me, cant leave you,
Wish the same for you, bless you.

Maria

Maria - my unborn child.

Another evening, another journey,
Logged out from issues, sans anxiety.

Darkness spreads wide, red turns grey,
Trying to close my eyes, as my train sways.

The call was feeble, but still it has life,
Emotions rose up and down like tides.

My smile caught her and she's so glad,
Keeping the pace, saw her face, clouds fade.

Dad, how was your day, she opened up,
I saw the concerns even she gazed up.

How's my bros, the next one was up,
Wish they could play, dine and hug.

Life's like a spoiler, always at mercy,
Still makes me dream out of all my worries.

How's mom, dad do you love her,
Answer to that, just tears, I'm over.

Darkness loomed on, we are through the tunnel,
No more queries, no denials.

She's gone, behind those thick clouds,
May be playing with HIM who know us.

Nostalgia

Nostalgia

Do you like walking in this rain ?
Have just one shade, you, me and that's fine.

Can i hold your hands, walk the mile ?
Like to splash that water on to you, make you smile

Can you taste this dripping drops from above ?
You can feel, the taste of pure warm love

Do you wish to hear how my heart beats?
you need to keep your ears on my chest

Can you feel this rain in my heart?
you need to look closer deeper for sure

Is that the same you feel, what im having here ?
I hope it would be since im always there.

Can i touch your feelings if you allow
You have to open up, do you know how ?

This rain is there always, in you and me
This pain is good which always keeps me free

The tears go up and never on my cheek
It rains all day, im unable to speak

Do you wish to pray this rain not to stop
I did mine and now for you to do,I hope.

So many new faces !! and my sons'

And as the days passed by, so many new faces came to my life..and the cutest among them is of my yet-to-be-born baby. The first pictures of him (a copy of Ultra sound scan pic), my son, gave me shrills...ha ha...he is just like me...and i belive his attitude, personality and the very himself would be my copy.. as one of my best pals put it...this is a cycle of life...and i woud say..itz a circle of life. And since music is my life...one song comes to my mind..the legendary Elton John (even though i cant stand his idea of marrying his boyfriend !!). Here is his song Circle of Life (Lyrics by tim rice)

From the day we arrive on the planet
And blinking, step into the sun
Theres more to be seen than can ever be seen
More to do than can ever be done

Some say eat or be eaten
Some say live and let live
But all are agreed as they join the stampede
You should never take more than you give

In the circle of life
Its the wheel of fortune
Its the leap of faith
Its the band of hope
Till we find our place
On the path unwinding
In the circle, the circle of life

Some of us fall by the wayside
And some of us soar to the stars
And some of us sail through our troubles
And some have to live with the scars

Theres far too much to take in here
More to find than can ever be found
But the sun rolling high through the sapphire sky
Keeps great and small on the endless round


and this is a circle of life ....we all are in...we all fall down...get up.....run....till we complete the circle...of this very life..